This song was written about my mother at a time when I realized the futility of this relationship and was grieving for what would never be–but also discovered an inner strength and a new found sense of freedom. I hope it brings you some comfort and strength.
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Finally I See–Now I’m Free
By Elaine D. Sanders
October 4, 2005
I trusted you
As I was supposed to do
You were the one
You were supposed to look out for me
But now I see
Finally I see
Finally I see
Now I’m free
You cannot give to me what I need to be free
You cannot give to me what you never received
How is it that I can see and give what I never received from you
But you can never see how you hold me down
And push me round
I’m like a prisoner in my own life
Finally I see
Now I’m free
You don’t see my inner strength, my kindnesses
My weakness they make you feel strong
You are so insecure you prey upon my trust in you
You know I’ll build you up when you are feeling wronged
But I finally see that your care for me
Is a bridge that holds me under
That holds you up
And pulls me down
And I can finally breath
The pain I grieve has turned out to be
Like air for me
Now I can understand
The final plan
the struggle to be inside of all of us
The urge to trust
The very one who disempowers us
When will we finally see
The ones who are suffering the most
Have the most to give and will forgive (ourselves)
And be free
Finally I see
Now I’m free
Now I’m free
